Let’s say there’s a country and its wicked cool and happy and everything is great. But then slowly the leader starts to be a tad more oppressive and propagandist. Eventually the entire country is completely dominated by this tyrant but the only thing is, the propaganda is so effective that only a small faction of the citizen’s are opposed to the oppression because the rest have fallen for the leader’s lies. The small faction has another group closely assosiated with it and the leader believes this group is on their side but really its a spy group for the faction. The faction could obtain harmony with the rest of the country but they would have to agree to a new policy that they just can’t agree with that is proposed by the leader. The faction doesn’t want to overthrow the leader, nor could it on its own anyway. The only way it could be overthrown to have the country’s issue resolved is to have all the other brainwashed citizen’s snap out of it and realize the leader has been lying to them. The faction would rather that, instead of the leader be overthrown, that it would instead be changed back into its democracy loving self because this faction used to be a group that worked close to the leader and helped it out with the country’s issues.

How can the faction get what they need?

I went a bit prodigal this weekend and drank. Alot. 10 beers in a matter of an hour and a half or so. It might have been 12 because Alyssa says she had 8 and we had 24 and only 4 were left and it was in a separate room than the people so they couldn’t have taken any. Anyway, I realized I don’t like drinking. It amplifies whatever mood you were in that day. Maybe its just me, but I usually get grumpy. So. Unless I had an awesome day all day and no upsetness, I’m not drinking.
I’m really stoked for the CPA program though. It’ll be cool. The SLC campus and rez’s are both really nice. It’ll be good.
Anyway. That’s all for now. I’ll be back later no doubt.

I’m not sure why. I went to bed at like 12. And I woke up at 9:15. But I’m still freaking tired.
This won’t be the best condition to learn code in. But I’ll try anyway haha.

It dawned on me this morning that I haven’t cracked the spine of my Bible in a LONG time. I think tonight after work I’l going to. It’ll be good. I need to start a daily schedule, as much as I HATE being on a schedule. Oh well. It’ll help be pick up good habits.

I suck soooo bad at video games. Alyssa was beating me when we went to Randall’s yesterday. And at Mortal Kombat for crying out loud! I definitely need to practice up. I can’t get school by a girl. Especially not a girl that doesn’t game! eek!
I got to play Gears of War for the first time yesterday. Its pretty sweet. I didn’t completely master the controls but I wouldn’t mind buying a 360 so I can play it. That’d be sweet.

I’m poor. But conservative!

I realize that I’m only poor because I a - don’t work enough and b - don’t save enough. Soooo. I’m going to start doing more of both.
My VISA got racked up last month with $200 of unplanned expenses being charged to it ($150 for a 500GB External HD that was on sale, it saved me $200, and $50 for a 4GB flash drive that was on sale and saved me like $30). I’m just bouncing back to that because I got my VISA down to $50 (from almost $500). Next pay I’ll be flush again and can hopefully put some money away. Then I’ll put away more and more each pay. It’ll work out.
So, I need to sit down and make a budget. I realized I have $400 a month of money that I don’t know where it goes. I’ll have o figure that out. I’m going to be paying close attention to my spending for the next little bit.

I seriously wish I didn’t have to work. I would sooo much happier not being dependent on a job for my finances. It takes up too much time that I could find better uses for. And I wouldn’t be lazy and just go on vacation or sit around either. I think I would work harder. I want to be able to learn as much as I can. I want to be an expert in the sciences (especially physics), mathematics, computers (everything about them), cars (and making mine run more powerfully, more efficiently), Theology, philosophy, history, politics. I want to know everything! If God hadn’t already said that no man would know as much as Solomon, I’d say I want to be smarter than that. But I can’t do that if I have to work to support myself. I kind of want to find a sponsor. Or a few sponsors. Maybe make it into some sort of psychology experiment. Anything as long as I can live and learn. I could go sit in on Queen’s University classes for free (you can do that, I’ve already asked some teachers haha) and jot down notes to go mull over later. I wouldn’t settle for just learning the stuff, I would think about it (there’s a huge difference). I’d improve on concepts based on my knowledge in other subjects that could help in the immediately studied one. I would be a professional scholar. I would work longer hours with more work and I’d be a lot happier. Anyone out there some rich philanthropist and want to lend me enough money to live? I wouldn’t need much. Enough for my own apartment with high speed and food and a fairly extensive budget for books. I want to be able to learn so much.